Edit:So I’ve had some discussions with people about this within non-binary (NB) communities and the first thing I want to say is that this is written from my perspective as an AFAB person. I don’t include the perspectives of AMAB people here or trans women, of whom experience femme hatred from the world when they express femme identities a lot more than I do. I don’t include those perspectives not because I don’t want to hear them but because I’m not a trans woman or AMAB and don’t feel as though I can weigh in on that. Femme hatred is still a problem both within NB communities and in the world at large. But this is just one piece of the puzzle. I’m not assuming necessarily that all NB people are like this, all NB people are interested in creating a “gender-less” presentation, or even that all NB people experience this. This is simply something I’ve witnessed and something I’ve experienced amongst NB individuals and in NB communities in general.
I wanted to talk about something I’ve witnessed across many different communities amongst some non-binary identified individuals: femme hatred or just the overwhelming avoidance of the feminine within non-binary identified individuals.
I want to preface this by saying that on a base level, I understand some of the anti-fem attitudes I see. Because I am AFAB (“assigned female at birth”, for those who don’t know that acroymn), I have a variety of different reactions when people perceive and judge my gender. Although I’m non-binary identified, because I am constantly analysed through a binary lens, different ways of interpreting my identity illicit different responses. When I’m assumed female, this has, in the past, demonstrated to me that I have somehow failed in an attempt to create non-binary presentation. In other words, I am somehow gendered, despite not wanting to be.
So on a basic level, I get some of the hatred and avoidance of femininity. If that just reaffirms an identity to others that you don’t have, then I understand wanting to stay away from it. I see lot of examples of explaining non-binary identities or genderqueerness by putting gender on a spectrum with “male” or “masculine” on one side and “female” and “feminine” on the other side, with genderqueer or non-binary identities set right in the middle. While this gradient may illustrate the point very clearly to cis people or binary identified people, I feel like the gradient really fails to capture the essence of gender expression and interpretation.
Maleness and masculinity have that same privilege within a white supremacist society. Groups of individuals are commonly referred to with male pronouns or male signifiers (those guys) and masculine general names are considered gender neutral (dude) where female or feminine signifiers (ladies, girls) are not given the same flexibility. Default avatars and representations of humans are always masculine bodied and represent white supremacist society’s concept of a “male” figure. Curvy shapes with breasts or hips never enjoy that same freedom. Therefore what becomes inevitably clear is that within white supremacist society, non-binary individuals do not and cannot exist in between the gradient of “masculine” and “feminine” when masculine is a cultural default.
I don’t wish to say that should a non-binary identified person choose to dress more masculinely or overall have a more masculine presentation that they are somehow buying into the binary or reinforcing any harmful stereotypes. At the end of the day, I think what feels comfortable for your own personal expression is something I don’t have the right to dictate and the last thing I would want to do is force someone into yet another gendered box, since that’s what I feel like is already happening left and right.
Instead, I would like to see more non-binary people, if they haven’t, reconsider their aversion to the femme and femininity. Because so much of our culture is already so anti-feminine and pro-masculine. None of exist within a social vacuum, we’re all positioned toward a state of femme rejection and hatred. I think it’s worth examining those attitudes at least once over.